I hate You
2004-09-05, 10:31 a.m.

You guys can't know each other... It's it's not possible:-/

God, why me?? WHy is it that I am finnaly content and you have to ruin it for me!!

Why! I fucking hate you, you stupid bastard!

Maybe just this once you can think about me instead of yourself. You can think about all the pain you caused me and still do.

Maybe this once you can just let me be happy! Because i am happy,or was happy until i found out you guys have a past.

Dont come to me with your "I knew him from middle and high school" bullshit. I dont care. You dont have to mess this up for me, for us!

Leave me the fuck alone... Please.

I miss you too,

you don't believe it,

you lay in bed alone at night,

i do the same though you can't conceive it,

i will always think you're beautiful,

you stare yourself down and mirrors lie,

if you could cut layers away you would still be there,

and there would be nothing left to deny,

the same stars that you see at night,

those tiny lights you breathe,

the ones that run in your tear~stained eyes,

they also glisten as i seethe,

i wish that you could hear me,

but you turn your head to ward off blows,

as if my love might wound you,

as if the motions of friends might prove foes,

you're breaking pieces of my heart,

i'm the mosaic you cannot finish,

as if over time this would all come together,

and that the confusion you feel would diminish,

i'm crazy for you, have always been,

but time got in the way,

another night passes without your voice,

and i wish i looked for today,

i miss you too, i know you think of me,

that i haunt each day you pass,

but i wonder if you know your spectre,

the one that always lasts,

i need you always, you don't listen,

how can you hear the knife twist again,

you can feel my words, real as your blades,

you're afraid to trust your once best friend,

tonight you're in someone else's arms,

even if it breaks my foolish heart,

my damned noble soul knows you deserve her embrace,

as the hypocrite in me falls apart...